FIGHT

You never know when you have the words that are going to make the difference in someones lives... there has been three key things said to me over the past week.... 1. Can't stay in survival mode forever.  2. You fight for everything in your life, don't stop now.  3. FIGHT! 

That's right.  It's time for me to start getting on with living.  Nothing comes easy with these kiddos of mine.  I fight to get all of them the best they deserve.  I've had a major accomplishment with my fight for Brittany this week, FINALLY getting her an appointment with Texas Children's Hospital.  I have been fighting and fighting for it.

I fight for Michael, Brittany, and Clayton all the time.  Some, I win. Some, I lose - or at least don't get what I wanted.  I only have one chance to fight for Tyler.  I will fight I will put everything I have into this.  I don't want another mother to have go through what I've been through.  I don't want his life not to be counted.  He was my son.  He looked just like his father.  He was very active.  He was and still is loved. 

To those who give me courage and support... Thank You!

Not a Person???? What's the meaning of this?

Just so that everyone knows...

Tyler died a few hours before he was born.  He was "stillborn."  He never got to breathe air or let out a cry.  Therefore, the law considers that he was not a person. 

God said that even when we were in our mother's womb he knew us.  I know that my baby is in Heaven.  He will never have to experience the troubles of this world.  I wish that made me feel better.

Why?  I hate that question.  It plagues my mind.  I can't make sense of all this. 

Sometimes, it seems as if his little life had no purpose.  I can't really deal with that.  I know there has to be some reason for all of this, but I can't figure that out.  God is a loving God.  He wouldn't just take my baby from me for the fun of it.

But then, he didn't take my baby from me.... he allowed Satan to... I wish that made me feel better.